I know literally everyone has been asking me how I did it. How did you lose weight Diamond? WELL ill tell you now after a year of achieving this goal. Honestly what I did was completely NOT HEALTHY. Everyone told me what I was doing was dumb and wouldn’t work. Which is true… but I didn’t say I was going to write about a healthy diet and exercise ideas. I said I would tell you how I lost the weight, so please no judgement I already knew the consequences and learn them personally, and I will get to that! For now, since what I did a year ago was well… a year ago. I decided to retrace my steps and try this challenge again!
So I went on what is called a 10 day Fast. For those who don’t know fasting is its a an old age practice for religious people, but it has became more and more popular over the decade.. There are different ways to fast the three I know is 1) To cleanse the body to get closer to god. 2) Only eating certain times of the days 3) To completely go a certain amount of days with no food. Which is what I did. I went 10 days with no food at all. I only drunk water, maybe lemon water to help the cleanse but that was it for 10 days. I did this challenge once a month for 3 months. (Hint I am not religious at all just opened minded)
Now recently in the past month I did the 10 day challenge again. I wrote down everything I was feeling and thinking day by day to give you an idea what its like to actually go 10 days without eating.
DAY 1
If you guys don’t know what this is, this is my blog finally talking about how I lost 100 pounds in 3 months. I don’t quite remember everything from my first challenge so I am doing the honors of retracing my steps and starting a new 10 day challenge and write down how I feel each day.
This challenge is just fasting for 10 days, with no food. That means I only drink water for ten straight days, with nothing to eat. Not a single thing.
So far it’s been 24 hours since I last ate. Nothing too horrible, I feel fine. I was super busy today anyways to even think about eating so it wasn’t hard. I drunk a lot of water today without noticing it. I am at work right now writing this and I don’t feel exhausted and it’s 12am, day one went okay. Then again, my body is used to this challenge so it might be harder for other people their first day not to eat.
DAY 2
So I’m for sure feeling hungry today. I keep reminding myself that what I’m doing won’t be worth it if I don’t finish the challenge. So I cannot give up. I keep grinding my teeth for some reason I think it’s my bodies message saying she’s hungry. It feels really good to be hungry sometimes. I hope that’s not weird. I had to keep busy on purpose today so I took Olivia to the library and the park for a couple hours to keep my mind off of being hungry.
Short story: When I first started doing this challenge I had finally lost 20 pounds and was noticing changes. I told my friend with so much excitement and her response was “you don’t even look different, you should just stop”. You guys have no idea how bad that hurt because I just lost 20 pounds and was so fucking proud of myself. I really cried that day because I thought what I was doing was pointless. SO! that motivates me losing weight every time I do this challenge because what I did MADE A DIFFERENCE. That was the last time I let anyone bring me down because of my weight.
Moral of the story: Be a leader not a follower.
DAY 3
So usually after day 3 my body cleanses it’s self of all the food I’ve had the past week and I have nothing else left in my stomach. Today I don’t feel hungry and I thought about it all day. I thought about getting food or fast food so it’s quick and over with and I wouldn’t feel regret, but I didn’t. It’s also so hard not to eat when you have a two year old who’s hungry every two hours!! So I’m forced to cook and smell these food foods. I made it to day 3 and I can’t go back now. I really can’t give up because that’s giving in, and right now I’m in this part of my life where I can’t give up on things I believe in so strongly.
I also think… this is just 10 days out of my entire life that I don’t eat and I’ll get the body I want for a life time. So this is worth it, I’ve done it before I know how it works. I know this is just a mind over matter situation. I GOT THIS. Day 3!!! Only seven more days left.
DAY 4
Okay I’m going to be completely honest with you, I am so angry because I really miss the five layer burrito from TacoBell. (Literally day 4 and can’t stop dreaming of burritos) I chewed on a piece of gum and spit it out instantly because OF THE GUILT. I feel so tired. I guess you get energy from eating and if you don’t eat your body starts using sleep as energy. So I’ve been drastically tired, but I haven’t been hungry. I have thought about being hungry, but my body no longer craves food. In fact I think I’d throw up if I tried. So now it’s definitely a mind over matter thing and I decided to create a food journal. A journal where I write down every food I’m dreaming of. An example would be writing down a four for four at Wendy’s… I’d definitely get the jr bacon meal and strawberry lemonade with a side of sour cream for my French fries… maybe even a side chicken sandwich for a finishing touch. ((BUT REMEMBER THESE ARE ONLY THOUGHTS ABOUT FOOD, I STILL DIDN’T EAT.) Yes I know this sounds cruel to my body mentally and physically and in many way pathetic but this is ACTUALLY how I am losing weight. I will mention again this challenge is not healthy at all. In the past 4 days I have lost 8 pounds. I read somewhere you’re only supposed to technically lose 2 pounds a week for a “healthy rate”.
What day are we on? Oh right.
DAY 5
Okay…. half way done.
I have been just doing normal day things. I took Olivia on a walk, I went to work last night, did some laundry, just everyday things. Life is still moving on. It’s really easy to turn down food when someone’s offers it now. At first it’s hard to say no to free food, and it’s harder explaining to the person why you don’t want it.
Honestly what I want is to be skinny. Not even skinny just little enough not to seem masculine anymore. I’m 5″7 with size 11 feet I am a BUILT lady. I wish I could just be feminine for once. I wrote in my food journal a lot today. It’s kinda funny I noticed today that literally no one has noticed that I haven’t eaten in days. Not one soul has asked me if I was okay.
Just remember you are in this for you. Not your boyfriend not your mom or coworkers. This challenge is to prove to myself I am in control of my life and I have the willpower to change anything I put my mind to.
Day 6
Dun dun dunnnnnn!!!!! I’m pretty impressed. I’ve lost 15 pounds so far day six. I keep standing on the scale over and over to check and see if it was broken but it’s not 🙂 I feel confident. I could probably wear a bikini and feel like the shit. Just because of the confidence I have, not because of the way my body looks. I still very much hate my body but at least that confidence boost helps. It will be ONE WEEK TOMORROW. I am so proud, I am not going to flex though, I am missing taste… you know… just tasting things in general. All I’ve been doing is drinking water and it has no flavor whatsoever. I miss tasting food. This challenge has really made me appreciate food more especially when the challenge is over and I can eat again. Honestly I feel really weak. I couldn’t win a fist fight right now, like I could be physically aggressive my body is so sore. I just want to lay down and sleep. I’ve been so busy with Olivia (my two year old) and I’m using a lot of energy doing that so it makes me even more tired. I also feel emotionally blank. I just want to stare off into space.
DAY 7 (One week)
I’m down 20 pounds now. I can see my rib cage when I suck in and it’s a beautiful feelings to notice hard work accomplished. I didn’t write in my food journal today. I’m SO tired of drinking water it feels like I’m swimming in a pool every time I take a drink.
Let’s admit I probably need therapy or some type of mental help but here I am. It’s okay, you’re not here to judge me, you’re here to know how I lost 100 pounds. I just want this entire blog to be completely honest. IF you think I’m crazy for doing this just look on YouTube how many others filmed there 10 day journey of fasting. Some make it to 20 days even.
I am sad because food makes me happy and comfortable and like.. a “at home” feeling. Now I’m skinny and uncomfortable and I don’t know my body anymore.
DAY 8
I am honestly so hungry, this is so hard. I worked out today out of anger for how hungry I am. I was burning a lot of calories today and it felt good to know 100% that I am FOR SURE losing weight at that very moment. I’m mentally obsessed and I probably have gained an eating disorder because this is my 4 month ever doing this challenge in less that a year and I can’t mentally accept things how they are. I feel like I still have to keep going.
I almost gave in and ate a yogurt thinking it’ll just slide through me and won’t count but I can’t do it. I can’t give up I have only two days left. I may be weak right now physically but I am NOT weak minded.
Day 9
I’m sorry you guys. I did actually give up on day 9 and ate a banana. So I am going to say I failed this challenge but there is more to come! I’ve lost a total of 23 pounds in 9 days. *applause* *bow*
I’ve learned to always stay humble no matter the situation. I just wanted the world to know how “unhealthily” lost weight. I also want to mention I have a theory I had gallbladder attacks because of fucking up my eating habits and therefore had to have my gallbladder removed. So please if you really don’t give a shit and want to be like me, try this 10 day challenge!!
Just to be helpful Incase I wasted your time today here is a link to healthy way to lose weight correctly: https://www.webmd.com/diet/features/10-ways-to-lose-weight-without-dieting
If you have any questions PLEASE don’t be scared to ask.
Until next time,